Knees to the Earth

Just when you think you can't:

1. Mum shows up with hugs abundant.
2. Facebook installs an X-me function, which Val rapidly and delightedly changes to 'hug me!'
3. An msn nic reminds you of a time when things were alright, and God was right there
4. Someone sends you a song which makes that time now
5. Things happen so you can.

For as long as I shall live, I will testify to Love

To you.

The most important thing is, I guess, that I really am fine. That things are going well, that I'm having fun, that I'm where I want to be. But it doesn't stop me missing.

Missing random hugs, and pounces, and uncontrollabe laughter
Missing calls to starbucks
Missing the sideglance and big grin
Missing the let's just GO
Missing having someone at anytime to do anything with
Missing feeling I'm one of you.
Band.
Missing the long phonecalls and the girl talk
Missing the surprise cookies and concerts
Missing spur-of-the-moment let's go watch the sun set cycles
Missing I grew UP with you you can't fool me moments
Missing people who know me better than I do
Missing not having to fight to be me

Nessa. Toot. Shane. Ajyt. Aaron. mp10. Jess. Jordon. Jannie. YMM. Amplify. ShaunRyanMelAugyShellyLaviLeonTammy.

And there really isn't anything I need more right now than a daft looking retriever demanding a hug.

God I miss hugs.

Dear God,

You know, it'll be so much easier if you just told me what you wanted.

Love,
Val.

Dear Val,

I did. You're not listening.

Love,
God.

Dear God,

*sulk*.

Love,
Val.

Because.

Because I have chicken pox, and am therefore stuck in my room, and because my essay doesn't want to be written, and because I felt like it: was looking through the archives of my blog, and found this. And realised that nothing has really changed. Am not sure if that's a good or bad thing...

"Seven things I plan to do before I die:

1. Teach in a mission school in Africa
2. Fall madly in love, get married, and have 7 kids :) (And still be madly in love through it all)
3. Run barefoot on a beach, with the wind in my hair and the sound of crashing waves in my ears
4. Perform in a bona fide concert
5. Write a book
6. Learn the drums, saxophone, violin, congas (ok yes, i know I'm cheating.)
7. Impact someone's life

Seven Celebrity Crushes:

*erm. I don't have celebrity crushes.

Seven Often Repeated Words/Phrases:

1. Life
2. Rockz :)
3. Uhuh.
4. Ah...
5. *grinz*
6. Will you shut up. (predominantly to my sister. But also to 2 rather tall people.)
7. I'm FAT. *scowls*

Seven Physical Traits I Look For In The Opposite Sex:

1. Smile
2. Eyes
3. Not shorter than me. (Not hard to be.)

*I'm not really into physical. Not really.

Non-physical determinants?

Ah. He's gotta be able to make me laugh even when I want to cry. Definitely must be able to tolerate my sister, because otherwise he wouldn't last. We've gotta click, intellectually, emotionally and spiritually. Since I'm not really good at expressing my feelings, he's gotta have some amount of security and confidence - preferably more than I have. Funny, serious, sweet, gruff, loving, lovable, nuts, sane (no, he doesn't have to be perfect.) And we've gotta be best best bestest friends."



Ok, other than the most used words/phrases, NOTHING has changed.

Might explain why I'm still single.

I want to be OUT. ON THE BACKS. BY THE RIVER. But nooooooooo.


*sulk*